Life Frustration

Geez, sometimes I just get so frustrated over the way I feel or the way I am lathargic and not wanting to do anything.Life just throws lemons at you and at times I don't know how to respond but to ask God for help.This is something I should have been doing all along but my priorities have gotten in the way yet again.

I wish my human self would stop being so selfish!But it's an uphill climb all the way, and a battle that only a King can fight.Our King Jesus Christ that is!We don't have the strength on our own yet we continually beat the air like we can win this life struggle.

I wish I could put words to my thoughts but alas my emotions would surely get in the way.The way God has things come into our lives to grow our faith.At the time its way too complicated to understand with our mortal minds.

I extremely dislike taking loans out because that means I will be more indebt than I am now.But unless some miraculous thing happens to pay for the remainder of the schooling for this semester I don't have any options available to me.

God I pray right now that I would commit all this to You and cease trying to take things into my own hands.I cannot do it on my own; help me overcome my fleshly nature.Amen.

I Am Christian

I am Christian by Maya Angelou

When I say... "I am a Christian" I'm not shouting "I'm clean livin'.

"I'm whispering "I was lost, now I'm found and forgiven.

"When I say... "I am a Christian" I don't speak of this with pride.

I'm confessing that I stumble and need Christ to be my guide.

When I say... "I am a Christian"I'm not trying to be strong.

I'm professing that I'm weak and need His strength to carry on.

When I say... "I am a Christian"I'm not bragging of success.

I'm admitting I have failed and need God to clean my mess.

When I say... "I am a Christian"I'm not claiming to be perfect,

My flaws are far too visible but, God believes I am worth it.

When I say... "I am a Christian" I still feel the sting of pain.

I have my share of heartaches so I call upon His name.

When I say... "I am a Christian"I'm not holier than thou,

I'm just a simple sinner who received God's good grace, somehow!

*Sigh*

You know I think that our life as human beings is like this picture.God only allows us to see part of His will for our lives at a time.If you actually stop and think about this concept you wouldn't ever question God and His workings in the world of today.

Sometimes I think about my life and why it is the way it is.I just can't explain it, the way some things make sense and others don't.The way that I can appreciate the warmth of sunshine on my face or the gorgeous blue sky; but then at other points in time I cannot even begin to comprehend the complexity of a certain human being and their emotions.How vastly misunderstood each human being is in their mind.

It's like I begin to understand the workings of people and why they act the way they do, but then their emotions/feelings get out of control.Then when you think you know them; the thoughts you have of them explode outside the box.So to leave you with something to think about try understanding the inner workings of someone fairly close to you and then see how complicated human beings can be.

At times I don't even understand myself or the way I view or think about a certain situation.It's kinda like you have a specific opinion or viewpoint about a topic but then you totally surprise yourself.

*Think about it.